Words of my Year: Patience and Strength

I’m trying to think of how to wrap up 2018 on the Super-Blog and I think it only fitting to give insight into my Year and hope that my story can inspire you, my dear reader, into doing things that make you happy.

First, people call me a strong person, a co-worker calls me “the strongest person I know” which I felt flattered by since I could never see myself as a strong person. That said, my inner strength has come into play this year, especially when one mentions my accomplishments over my life, which are very extensive when I write them all down and stepped back and looked at the list I created.

Patience has been something I’ve been known for internally for awhile. Whatever it may be, being overwhelmed with bad roommates, social anxiety and stage fright, I’ve also felt as if I can deal with it now all with patience. I admit that I can have a temper when I’m pushed beyond my limits, but those instances are rare.

2018 was a tremendous year for me, as I hope it was for you even with it’s fair share of losses, tragedy, triumphs and turmoils. Dreams were realized and doubts were dashed, I sincerely hope that 2019 is a year where the same is true, a better year where we can all join together and…

Shine On!! Happy New Year!!!

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Poetry Packed Out: What is strange and exciting at the same time?

Greetings from the Spectrumite Side!!!

Can I pose a question to all of my readers, when have you ever tried to fit in, but just didn’t quite feel that you really belonged? I’ve had that kind of feelings many a time in my life and it’s a lonely feeling, not knowing what club to join, not knowing what you like, what your passion is and all that.

This can be a depressing time for Spectrumites, when we don’t feel included, when we feel excluded when we want to belong. I can say that in my life,  I’ve only recently found out a lot about myself in the last 6 years, but there are times where I feel like I don’t fit, for lack of a better term.

According to the following article from SpectrumNews.org entitled Autism in adults often accompanied by depression, (with the provided link:https://www.spectrumnews.org/news/autism-adults-often-accompanied-depression/) Hannah Furfaro explains that:

Among individuals with autism, about 24 percent of those without intellectual disability have a depression diagnosis, compared with about 9 percent of those with intellectual disability. This finding supports a previously reported association between intelligence and depression in autistic people4. The work appeared 31 August in JAMA Network.

Among individuals with autism, about 24 percent of those without intellectual disability have a depression diagnosis, compared with about 9 percent of those with intellectual disability. This finding supports a previously reported association between intelligence and depression in autistic people4. The work appeared 31 August in JAMA Network.

 I should know about depression, since I have experienced it firsthand, that feeling of loneliness, worthlessness and feeling like you don’t belong. It’s those feelings that made me feel like my latest poem, entitled Enigma:

Enigma 

By Brian Liston

 

Engaging as a chameleon, stealthy as a spy, such is his life

Never really fitting into a world; no cookies to cut in square peg

In and out; drifting, slipping inside own mind, talking yet waiting

Gathering information as he goes, only those who know him understand

Mazes he goes through, figuring himself out one day at a time, maybe one day

All will be revealed; sorted out, all unfurled- all in due time.

Make sure to include us and not exclude us and help us all…

Shine On!!

A Wise Piece of Perspective..

Have you gone somewhere and dealt with a lifestyle you thought you’d never deal with ever again? Forgive me for sounding like comedian Tom Papa but in this case, I have.

This weekend is Christmas in the Village in Saugerties and it’s been very relaxing for me walking the streets that are usually filled with cars, passing to and fro (aside from several Fire trucks decorated with Christmas lights, sirens and all, that was overwhelming for me, as it can be for many Spectrumites.)

Getting back to my story, I was having dinner at a Packed Mirabella’s, with people watching and cheering football games, which made me give pause to my former life. Full disclosure, I was a bartender’s son, so having noise like cheering and fights at times were a way of life for me.

Another aspect of this was listening to others problems, which is something that my brothers and I deal with as well. It can be well described as Adrian Monk said in the TV show Monk, “it’s a blessing and a curse” as people ask you to listen to all the problems they have feeling like you have the answers to them, even when you honestly don’t have them. It can honestly be a lot of pressure but it’s a cross I’ve learned to bear.

That said, the bar business brought communities together in times of celebration or woe. It was the epicenter of ideas in our communities, where people can talk and bounce ideas off each other. More than making people feel like you’re a part of a larger group, a bar can make you feel at home, like you were with family.

I bring this up to compare my former life to my current one. Even though I sometimes need to be alone and find out whom I am at times, my former life compels me to help others, I guess it’s just in my nature to do so.

Another thing to note about this is that Christmas in the Village is more than the lights, the sounds and the weather, it’s about a community coming together, be we families, friends or anywhere in between. The song “We Are Family” comes to mind when I think of my hometown, as I’m sure the same can be said for anyone anywhere. It’s important that we nuture and support each ithet’s talents so we can all help each other, either during the holidays or year round…

Shine On!!!