(Writer’s note: Please note that this post was written on Wednesday, February 20, before I practiced my Lenten observance, one of which is being absent on social media, but the message remains relevant)
Have you ever felt like no matter what you do, how accomplished you feel, you feel unfulfilled at times? Like the only close friends you have are anxiety and depression, where being stagnant has become a way of life for you?
I know I sound like a Tom Papa skit from NPR’s radio program Live From Here, but here’s the point: I have. I’ve been there, before I moved into my current apartment, I felt unfulfilled, I felt lazy, I felt anxious and I deal with depression and I still do to this day. It feels natural to doubt yourself and wonder if you’re doing the right thing, even when all signs point that you’re right.
Here’s some good news I’ve learned in my life, in spite of all this: I’ve learned that we all grow differently, in different ways, but we all blossom at our own time. If you were to look at me now against who I was before the move, it’d be night and day, because I had to learn new things about myself. That’s not to say that it’ll be easy, as I’m sure it hasn’t been during the three weeks we’ve dealt with during Lent.
Each Lent is all about growth, not just personal growth as it’s been about spiritual growth. We’ve all given up something that we really felt like we couldn’t live without, but think about how far we’ve all come since Ash Wednesday, how much we’ve learned about our Faith and about ourselves.
It really can be a challenge to change; to evolve beyond our programming to use a line from Star Trek: Generations. But at times, it feels natural to change as we feel like Data perhaps, thinking about how we can proceed. The only way we can grow is to take stock of our lives and find out what we need to shed, what we need to do to become a better version of ourselves, the person God calls us to be. Only then can we thrive in times of trouble, grow in our Faith and really..,