Preview of Coming Attractions!!!

Happy New Year to all of my readers, whereever you are!!!

I just want to say thank you so much for the progress I’ve made on the Super-Blog this past year, but I also want to say that, if last year was a good year, this year will be moreso, primarily due to new things I plan to do on the Super-Blog over this New Year!!!

First off, Letters For Lent and The Advent Hope will be continuing this year, since it was a joy to do on my end.

Next, Poetry Packed Out will be going on as well, possibly weekly but certainly monthly at the most. It’s something that I really enjoy doing, showing off my work like a proud parent for you all to read. It’s my hope that you all enjoy it.

Now, for something new on the Super-Blog: you may have noticed that I did my Predictions for Wrestlemania this past year. I want to do that again, but do that for all of the 2020 WWE Pay Per Views, starting with this month’s classic: WWE’s Royal Rumble. What it’ll be is a prediction card like I did last time, but I’ll publish it on either a Friday or Saturday evening at the latest. I’m still working on a title for this new project, so I’m open to any ideas.

As always, I’ll give my take on life events, doing my part to empower fellow Spectrumites who may seem down on their lives, hoping to do my part to help others and let them all know that they aren’t alone so they can…

Shine On!!

Poetry Packed Out: A Somber Sequel to a Bookish War Piece

I should let you all know, my readers, that this edition of Poetry Packed Out is prompted by a recent visit that came this past summer when the Traveling Vietnam Wall came into not only Saugerties, but just as recently, in Catskill.

To set the scene, I had written a prose piece originally in an English class that I took at SUNY Ulster. It was a free verse poem called Dearest Jimmy, a poem that is available in my book, Through Autistic Eyes. In the poem, I bring up the question of why people go to war in the first place, written in the guise of Jim’s beloved, Martha. The personalities were fictional (of course) but the sentiment was there, nevertheless. So, I figured that a sequel was fitting, given the occasion:

Beloved Martha

Dear Martha:

Heaven alone knows if you’ll get this, since your words are an oasis compared to what I see, hear every waking moment. I heard the veterans say that war is hell as I was marching in formation, shrugging it off as bluster, not realizing their words ring true now more than ever.

“Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine.” I said to them even as I’m absorbing every blood soaked image into my brain now. It’s now I see the wisdom in veteran’s words, mixed in between peace; calm living inside the turmoil and chaos in their lives.

I’d do everything in my human power to make sure you never see or know the fear I feel as I sleep. Fame never mattered to me, nor did money or anything material. I only want to give of myself what I could for others, little as it may be. Your love does more to encourage me than any evil that comes, even from Hell itself.

Just let my friends and family know that I do care about them and I hope to see them someday.

With eternal love,

 

Sgt. Jimmy

 

Of course, the characters were not real, but the conditions that they were dealing with were, and still are dealing with today. I’ll admit that I’ve never dealt with war, adversity yes, but not war as those who are in the Services. What I ca do to paint the scene will never be enough, but I ask you all to be kind to each other; respect each other’s daily battles and support them. Only then can peace be given a chance so that we can all….

 

Shine On!!!

Word of the Decade: Evolution

As this year, and this decade for that matter, comes to a close, I am reminded of a quote from Dr. Emmet Brown from Back to the Future:

My God, has it been that long?

This decade has been eventful, both with its highs and lows, but such is like itself, I suppose. That said, if I can sum up my decade in one word, that word would be: Evolution. I know that could be said every decade, but in my case, it’s apropos because of what I went through in this decade.

I was weaker as I came into this decade, I was stagnant and I felt so hopeless, I felt like I could never relax, since I felt like I absolutely had to be “on stage”; Elsa’s words from Frozen were me during the start of the decade: “conceal, don’t feel.” That all changed on October 5, 2013, when I moved from my Mom’s apartment/business into a supportive apartment from the ARC Mid Hudson.

To say that I’ve evolved ever since would be a huge understatement, I went from making toast, cereal and bagels, to making oatmeal, French toast, chicken Caesar salad, hamburgers and fish and chips. I also did some baking, especially cakes and cookies. I was able to be creative in a new; unique way, one I didn’t know that I could be.

Another place that I evolved is emotionally, as I dealt with the demons that I had to deal with, I uncovered and dealt with several personal demons that I let console me in the past. I’m still working to deal with them, but one of them (depression) is an uphill struggle, one I daily deal with, but if I could say this, just know that, with support, it is possible to deal with it.

It wasn’t all bad though, as I finally finished my first book, Through Autistic Eyes, after thinking that it was all but over. This decade showed me that hope can pay off, no matter how distant it feels. I also learned a lot about myself and, for the first time in a while, I’m beginning to trust myself and believe in myself; that must be what Garak from Star Trek: Deep Space Nine told Captain Sisko in the episode “In the Pale Moonlight”, “I don’t know about you, but I’d call that a bargain.”

Another thing I took out of this decade is that I started The Autistic Super-Blog three years ago after a long time to think about it. After two years of figuring out blogging, I finished out 2019 with over 1,600 views, which makes me feel like this was a great decision to start blogging. So, I just want to say thank you all, my readers, for helping my blog have the year it’s had in its short life so far. I hope that next year is even better than before.

So, let us look to the future with hope, with optimism and the ability to make our world a better place, one where we can all…

Shine On!! Happy New Year!!!!

A Legendary Birthday!!

Anyone who knows me knows that I’m a game show fan, especially you, my readers, knows that I might be belated, but I want to be among those to wish a Happy Birthday to the Worlds Greatest Master of Ceremonies or WGMC, Bob Barker, who turned 96 years old on December 12th.

When it comes to game shows, the hallowed Goodson-Todman creation known as The Price is Right stands above and beyond the best of the best. All other game shows and hosts all can look to TPiR for the renaissance to the genre. To give a comparison to other game shows, Price, as we know it now, began in September 1972, with the legendary Bob Barker, but began in 1956 on NBC and later ABC under the direction of the “Dean of Game Shows” the late Bill Cullen.

By comparision, Jeopardy!, a reversed quiz show created by the late Merv Griffin (for reasons I’ll get into late in this post) was born in 1964 on NBC and later had its current run begin in 1984, hosted by Art Fleming and Alex Trebek, respectively.

The thing to note here is that, if one looks at the timeframe, the 1960s were a really bad time for game shows, still reeling from the Quiz Show Scandals of a decade earlier.  Goodson-Todman had built up a reputation of being very clean in their dealings, so they went relatively unscathed. Griffin had a dealing with G-T with short lived show Play Your Hunch as well as Cullen’s TPiR. but he would get inspiration from the scandals thanks to his wife, as he explained in an interview:

My wife Julann just came up with the idea one day when we were in a plane bringing us back to New York from Duluth. I was mulling over game show ideas, when she noted that there had not been a successful ‘question and answer’ game on the air since the quiz show scandals. Why not do a switch, and give the answers to the contestant and let them come up with the question.
She fired a couple of answers to me: ‘5,280’ and the question of course was how many feet in a mile. Another was ’79 Wistful Vista.’ That was Fibber and Mollie McGee’s address. I loved the idea, went straight to NBC with the idea, and they bought it without even looking at a pilot show.

And the rest is game show history. But I digress…

Bob Barker stood for something in his animal activism and it showed in his trademark show The Price is Right, but his game show career shined in Truth and Consequences in his demeanor and his ability to make the contestants the stars of the show, not him. I have a first hand experience about that, as I was at one of his final shows on TPiR before he retired in 2007 (along with my older brother, Bill and it was a magical experience to be at the Bob Barker Studio (which, by the way, is located at 7800 Beverly Boulevard, Los Angeles, CA 90036, okay Bob! Thank you Rod Roddy, God rest your soul!)

At the end of the show, near the Final Showcases, he asked for people to “Oooooh” and “Ahhh” at the prizes to be shown, at one point, he asks for me, and I gave it my all…saying “Oooooh yeah!” much like the late “Macho Man” Randy Savage, I was told to do it again, but I was SO embarrassed by my performance that I couldn’t, I was frozen by fear, but nonetheless, it was indeed a magical experience that I will never forget.

I write this to say Happy Belated Birthday to the WGMC, the Legendary Bob Barker, thank you for all you’ve done for us, helping us care for each other and laugh with each other and helping us all…

 

Shine On!!! And get your pets spayed or neutered!!

2019 Word of the Year: Challenge!!

To say that this year has been an easy one would be hard for anyone to say, but for me, if I had to use one word to sum up my year, it’d be challenge. That may sound like a funny one coming as it does from a game show fan, but this really has been a challenging year for me, most of it comes from a financial problem I’ve had throughout the year.

Without going into any details, I was (and still am) working at my job, but the hours I was working got the attention of Social Security and basically, I was being cut on my food stamps because of it. To say that it was annoying would be an understatement, so I was able to eventually find a balance with it that still allows me to work, though with less hours.

That also goes hand-in-hand with another thing that Spectrumites like myself need help with, moreso than our neurotypical counterparts: money management.

We can be taught, but to be working and knowing that money is ours for the spending, along with those things we know SO much about can make it problematic, as it was in my case. Too much spending and no holding back made my house manager (and my family, by proxy) very concerned. The fact that my family has had a history of bad financial choices made the decision all the more necessary. After a lot of thinking, stressing and talking about it, I decided to reluctantly give my house manager control over my finances.

To say that it was needed would be apt, but to say that it’s been easy wouldn’t, to be honest, it’s been a real challenge for me. It’s forced me to deal with budgeting in a way I couldn’t before. That said, it was the challenge that I honestly needed, much as it hurts them as now.

That being said, I feel really hopeful,

I feel hopeful that this will be a good thing to learn, painful as it can be.

I feel hopeful that this isn’t a permanent thing and that I’ll get control back in time.

That’s not to say that it’ll be easy, but I look at this as a way for me to be creative in a new way, here’s hoping that I can make it work.

I feel hopeful in the fact that I’m not alone, though.

As we go into 2020, let’s look at our challenges as blessings, as obstacles for us to overcome and be hopeful that we can all breakthrough and, as always..

Shine On!!!

#Throwback Thursday: Party Pooped!

What do babies shouting, people talking and unfamiliarity have in common?

They all can be found (in droves, at times) during social gatherings, those impromptu engagements that can confound Spectrumites and NTs alike. Even to this day, social situations, especially new places and people, are daunting, too much of which can be like an old school pinball machine going “tilt” because it gets rocked too much.

Small groups are all right for me; but huge gatherings can be tough for me to navigate through without familiar people there to support me. Such was the case with my sister in laws surprise birthday party.

It was a great party all around, all set up my older brother and my sister-in-laws family and it was a nice party overall if not for everyone talking, which was a bit overwhelming to me, causing me to overeat and not pay attention to others, my needing to recharge by going outside.

These coping mechanisms are things that are build in to me, just like coping mechanisms can be built in or learned by other Spectrumites. Social situations for Spectrumites can be tough with so many variables to us to discern, body language, tones, eye contact among others. It can be daunting for Spectrumites to figure out the right response to the appropriate situation, even impossible to feels at times.

When we need breaks from social situations, it’s not meant to be rude, but it can be overwhelming at those points. We don’t ask for pity, passes or excuses, but we only ask for patience and understanding so we can learn, get better, avoid misunderstandings and give us all a chance to…

Shine On!!

The Advent Hope: Be Light, Be Hope!!

Well, here we are, my readers!! We’re here at Christmas!!

The focal point for the Christmas season is about light. Jesus came into the world by the light of the northern star, who that directed The Wise Men to Him and His Holy Family. Light was a miracle in the Chanukah story, since the Jewish people only had enough oil for one day, but lasted for eight days.

Maybe, I’m skimming over the holidays, but I do so only to prove a point: that the Holiday season is all about life and hope for us all. This season is not just about seeing light, but being a light for others. If ever you needed to see why our light matters, just look at the television or read the news. There’s so much bad news out there that it’s hard to see the light in this dark world.

That’s where we come into play.

We can be light to others, we need to be light to others, we need to be open to others about our stories and our problems so that they can see them in our stories. We can offer help to those in need and we should.

Just think of what we could do if we could join our light with others, all the problems like depression, suicide, addiction could be dealt with more easily with others, rather than feeling that you can do it alone. I’m not saying that it would be easy to do, but it is something to consider.

So, don’t hide your light but let it shine, let others know about your problems; your flaws and don’t be afraid to be yourself. Only then can you really live and inspire others to follow your example and really learn to…..

Shine On!! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!

Peace and Light!!

A dear friend of mine, poet and actor Mikhail Horowitz during a winter sale of his significant other Carol Zaloom’s works, remarked how Christmas music honors the Jewish people, after all in his words, “Jesus was a Jewish Rabbi.”

As I think about it now, it makes so much sense.

Chanukah is all about light, much like Advent, and light can mean so much for all of us, like being in a dark house after the electricity shuts down. It can be so bleak; so confusing until all of a sudden, light comes back on. Hope works the same way, as do miracles go, especially in the Chanukah story. A little oil in their menorah lasted much longer (eight days!) than it should have.

Ok, so I summarized the Chanukah story, but the point stands. Hope lives, and does our faith and miracles, even as bad things happen in our lives. It’s time for us to embrace light, miracles and more importantly, hope.

So, this is my thank you for my Jewish friends and standing strong in their faith and giving us an inspiration for faith. Thank you all so much for helping us all..

Shine On!! May our light shine on as one!!

The Advent Hope: Seeing the Best in the Worst

I’ve mentioned this before on the Super-Blog before, but my Dad always has a saying that I think is very wise for this season and it speaks to all of us, especially with classic movies like Adam Sandler’s Eight Crazy Nights, Miracle on 34th Street, Home Alone (the first two anyway) and others.

In case you, my readers, forget my Dad’s advice, well, here it is again:” I thought I was bad off when I had no shoes, until I saw the man with no feet.”

How I translate it in the Holiday context is to be nice; be kind, be compassionate towards one another. How many of my readers can say that their lives have been charmed, that they’ve had perfect lives, that they’ve never dealt with any adversity. If anyone did, I don’t think that I would buy it, simply because we’ve all gone through struggles in our lives.

The fact is that no one is really perfect, we all make mistakes, we all have regrets, we all have things where we haven’t done what others feel is the right thing.

What would you do in those cases? How would you deal with those cases? Would you jump down their throats, preaching to them at their lowest? Would you lecture them as they grieve?

I don’t think I would and I’m pretty sure no one else would either. St. Joseph didn’t do that to the Virgin Mary when he found out that Mary was with child and he couldn’t gone the route that the world would tell him to, but he didn’t.

He showed compassion, he showed restraint, he showed mercy as we all should to one another. Wise words for the Holiday season, so let’s be kinder to each other, for by doing that, we can help others and support others, helping them and us all…

Shine On!!