How many of us, Spectrumites and otherwise, have been mistreated so much that forgiving seems to be a hard (impossible?) thing to do, especially for things that were really out of our control?
I was going to write a short post, commenting on the fact that Ash Wednesday, and thus Lent, will be starting up tomorrow (the first Letters For Lent of 2020 will be up tomorrow, so I hope you, my readers, enjoy both that and this year’s series) but I read something that I just needed to comment on.
Not so much comment on, but rather a confession: I’ve been dealing with a lot of self-hate. Here’s the link where I got the inspiration: https://www.wikihow.com/Accept-Your-Autism
We’ve all had those experiences, right? That nagging feeling that the things that we do just aren’t enough, who we are won’t be good enough. I can say personally that, even with all the positive support that I have in my community, it’s hard for me to see me as others see me simply because being autistic in a neurotypical world can be outright exhausting.
Dealing with it for so long can be harmful to us, simply because of the self-hate we deal with, mostly due to the fact that we mask our true selves in order to fit in. I think of it as being a real life superhero, we hide who we are to those in public, but those who know us know the real us, the person behind the mask.
One of the things I plan to do for Lent is something I’ve never really done before: give myself a break, be kind to myself. Giving up social media and soda are things that I’ve done before (and, by the way, I plan to do those again) but I think that giving myself a break and being kind to myself may be a game changer this Lent, maybe doing a short self afirmations either here or in my personal space.
But this is something that I want to do, something I need to do, for myself if nothing else; I can only hope that others will see this and learn from my example this Lent.
Please wish me luck and, as always…
As I watch The President of The United States have a conference regarding his Impeachment acquittal, I’m reminded once again about how much power can corrupt anyone and everyone.
It’s probably the reason why I don’t talk about politics much, because it’s a pit full of vipers. That said, it is a necessary evil to deal with, especially now in everyday life.
But it’s also reminded me what’s needed in our society in general: the virtue of humility. Being proud of one’s accomplishments is one thing, but there’s something cleansing about having humility. It makes things seem more genuine, both the good as well as the bad. It makes power seem like a blessing because it will be used wisely, used to help others, not just a select few.
I’ve been told by my local self advocacy group that I’d be a great President, especially since I’ve already proven to be a leader. That said, I am very well aware of what can happen if power goes to one’s head, proven by the example of Mr. Pumpkin Head (fans of Miyazaki’s Howl’s Moving Castle I’m sure will get that reference!)
As for myself, I like to lead by example, don’t tell others what they did wrong, show them, but be open to others opinions. Communication is critical in this case, as frustrations could boil over if not explained. Better for things to be explained as they come, as it could distract from action, real action.
I’m very sorry to have turned this into a political post (especially since I’m not well versed in politics, personally) but this was something that I felt needed to be said, it also highlights the subject of humility.
Notice how I puffed myself up and talking about my leadership style; realize that as much as it can happen to those in power, it can easily happen to any of us, unless we stay humble.
I’m reminded of Star Trek character Zefram Cochrane’s quote in Star Trek: First Contact:
Don’t try to be a great man. Just be a man, and let history make its own judgements.
Wise words for us all, I feel, especially when it comes to humility, as your personality and your values tend to shine more than your accomplishments. It’s hard to do, but know that it can be done, as people like St. Teresa of Calcutta, John Fitzgerald Kennedy and St. John Paul II have proven over the years. Only then can we make ourselves great, really succeed and help others to…
Mary Poppins had it right when she said that some promises are like a pie crust: “Easily made and easily broken.” Such is similar with a simple thing as Trust. Trust is a black and white thing, you either have it or you don’t.
The question that I was struggling with for a long time is what to do when trust is broken? This is the time where family, friends and faith become imperative to survival. It’s normal to panic and want for things to go as you would want them to go, but as I’ve discovered recently, it’s all for naught.
All you can really do is rebuild a different type of trust, self confidence, which means looking in the mirror and taking stock of who you are and what you mean to others. For all my troubles, all my problems, all the things that could put me down, I’ve realized that it all changes when someone calls me an inspiration not only to them but others, there’s no better feeling than to know that you matter. We all matter to each other, and that’s something that we all should see, both in ourselves but others, too.